Wow! It's been almost a year since I have written. I can come up with a list to help justify the length of time, but why? Life is busy and chaotic for anyone who is living. But what is boils down to is I have been trying to live each day without my past being the present. The past several years have been ridiculously difficult. And no doubt my soul needed a break from it all. But I have tried, and many times succeeded feeling like I am.....normal.
Normal? What is normal? Sadly, the more I talk with people, the more I read, being sexually abused is so common. Way too common. Normal? Hell No! But, I can see how it's possible to feel abnormal by not having sexual abuse part of your life. Either you are a victim, or you know someone who is or has been. Am I not right? This world is so full of abuse. It's sickening how many people I can think of right this very minute that have gone through the same pain and fear I've experienced. Sure, I feel victorious most of the time. But this shit is always a part of you. I have always felt so lucky for the wonderful supportive people I have in my life. I am surrounded by people who love me and who truly care about me.
40 years of life is quickly approaching for me. Am I scared? A little bit. I look in the mirror and I no longer see the 25 year old version of me. It kinda sucks! But on a more positive note, I'm still here, making good memories!
